I’ve been living with the word unknown for 25 plus years. I have never liked that word. Like many, I wish that I knew what was going to happen day to day. I feel less anxious if I feel like I’m in control. The unknowns when dealing with a chronic illness has been a struggle.
I have had chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia for the past 25 years and it has been hard. There are so many unknowns when living with a chronic illness. It is daily and at times relentless. My symptoms are different in intensity but are always there. I never know how I’m going to feel until that day. This makes planning very hard. It makes me anxious at times when I don’t know whether I’ll be able to keep an appointment or make plans with friends.
The past few months have been especially difficult. My health symptoms have intensified and I am dealing with brain fog severe fatigue and all-over pain. I am not able to drive on a consistent basis nor able to work. I am filing for disability at this time. There are so many unknowns.
Being a parent I have also been presented with unknowns. My son has struggled with severe depression and anxiety. I know all parents go through this. Parenting is full of unknowns. Sometimes I wish I could wrap my kids in bubble wrap even though they are young adults!
Today the scripture verse that happened to be in my devotion was “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment” 1 John 4:18 NIV. How perfect for today!
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